Movie Pick of The Week!!

Hello folks,
I'm back for another entry....
Theme of the week: Movie Pick of The Week

So the rule is simple, pick any movie that we have watched in the week , it could be an old movie or a recent one, and it could have been watched in the cinema, on the laptop, on television, et cetera....
As long as the movie has been watched during some time in the week...
So, the movie of my choice, THE BODYGUARD!!
Not the new version, but the old one, the one relesed in 1992. Acted by Whitney Houston and Kevin Costner...

The movie was about Rachel Marron (Whitney Houston) and Frank Farmer (Kevin Costner). Rachel is an Oscar- nominated pop star and she was stalked and has received several death threats. So Frank, a former Secret Service agent, was hired to be her bodyguard. Somewhere along the lines, they fall in love with each other, although Frank finally chose to end the affair for fear of not being able to be professional and of compromising his ability to protect her.

The main reason I was called to pick the movie was because of the way it made me felt...
Frank was like super protective of Rachel's safety. Throughout the whole movie you can see how he always watches over her and only thinks about protecting her. I mean, yea he's her bodyguard so that makes it his duty. It started out as that, but into the movie you can see that Frank has fallen for her, and now protecting her wasn't just about doing the job, but also because he really just can't afford to have anything bad happen to her because of his love to her. The way he looks at her, always watching over her..... It just touches my heart. To have someone love her like that, and to always wanna protect her from any harm, and wants her to have all the best things in her life, she is just so lucky. I mean, he knows that he can't provide all of that for her, but at the very least he tries to give her the best of what he can provide to her, by protecting her. Towards the end of the movie, he took a bullet for her, or rather, two if you're really counting.

In today's world where chivalry and gallantry seems to be dead, to see the way he protects her, it just touches my heart. You don't find love like that just about anywhere, much less guys like that. For a person who's heart has been broken into small pieces, and who have lost her faith in love, and any trust in men, I have to say, that I am severely moved. It really touched me, and has rendered me speechless at that moment in time.... I have never had any guy look at me the way he looks at her, and never, have i felt like I was being protected and really cared for by a guy the way he did for her.... But then again, I guess I'm just not the kinda girl guys do that for. I mean, I'm not complaining or anything, who am I to complaint right.... But just after everything, I guess I just feel tired. I'm spent, exhausted, I feel like I'm done with it all. I'm tired of being the one who's protecting, the one who cares, the one who tries my best to understand and be the best of me for someone else.... For once, I wanna be the one being protected for a change, the one being taken care of, the one who is loved, the one who gets the best of someone else. But in the same time, I am such a mess that I can't even begin to put myself in a relationship, can't even commit or even trust at all.... In fact, nowadays, relationship scares me so much that even just talking about the prospect of it makes me wanna cry...... Don't get me wrong, it's not like i regret anything or blames anyone for it. I just, after everything, feels like I have to protect myself from others, and being in a relationship, I can't do that... I'll be open to hurt, and all kinds of pain.... This is not my first heartbreak, but I think that's why I take it so hard this time. 'Cause it has happened before, and in the past I told myself to ignore my instinct to protect myself, and take the leap, give it a chance, it could be different, and then... it happened again. So this time.....

I dunno what might happen in the future. If this heart can heal, if I can heal. In a way, I think I have. Healed from him, recovered from him. But the emotional baggages, the hurt, the damage, it's still there, and I don't believe in fairy tales and happy endings the way I used to.... I can now smile again, and I'm happy, and I love my life, I love the people around me, I enjoy myself..... But when it comes to relationships, I'm scared, like really really scared.... There are all these baggages, all these issues, that makes me a pessimist when it comes to relationships....

But hey, I choose to move on and live my life. So, enough with the stupid rambling that's just gonna make me seem like a loser rite.... Hahahahaha =p
Now, I wanna focus on myself, and my life....
I wanna finish my study, go to work, build my career....
To do my best in everything....
And I also wanna spend my quality time with the people around me, because people are important....
I wanna live my life to the fullest, and be the best person I can be.....

Bye guys,
Till next week..... = )

The Last 'Back to School' Experience.....

Hey guys
Back for another update as promised.... = )
So this week's theme: CLASS

After 10 months of leaving the campus, I am finally back....
Starting the last semester for my degree, and possibly, the last full time study experience

After going through the 6 months internship period, I have realised that my life as a student is actually one of the best periods in my life...
Campus life, student life, is the best
You have all the freedom in the world, all the time in the world, no strings attached, no responsibility to anyone but yourself, and all sorts of fun....
Everything in your life is about choices

When you work, you HAVE to get up in the morning for work,

You HAVE to finish your assignment by the deadline,

You HAVE to be responsible, to put in all your effort,

You HAVE to stay awake at work,

and you HAVE to survive....

It's different when you're studying,

It's up to you if you wanna get up in the morning for class, if you don't it affects only YOUR attendance

It's up to you if you wanna sleep in class, 'cause YOU are the one who's gonna miss out, no one else

It's up to you if you don't wanna study, YOU are the one who's going to fail,

And it's up to you if you don't wanna complete your assignment, 'cause YOU are the one who is gonna lose the marks...

At the end of the day, u get to go wherever, do whatever....

The only question that you need to ask yourself before you do something is, are you prepared to live with the consequences of your actions,

So when I stay at home, study, and do my assignments, as well as go to class, I know that I'm doing it for me, and no one else. I do it because I want to do it, and not because of I'm told too...

Working, you can't afford this kinda freedom...

You have to be responsible for not only yourself, but you teammates, firm, clients, et cetera....

Another thing that I love about studying is your life with your friends....

You go to class, the moment you come in all your friends will greet you, and the whole class will be in uproar from all the talking and the catching up, as well as the gossips, and then you'll laugh together, tell your stories to each other, go to eat together, you learn together, healthily compete with each other....

Friends, there are so many things that I love about studying, and the campus life, that it would take you maybe a week to finish reading my entry if I write it all.... So we'll just leave it at that.... =p

So anyway, only a week has passed since the start of the semester, and I have already had lots of fun and am loving my life here.....

Here's the brief summary of my first week here:

On the 1st day

Went to the faculty to settle my class registration, and then we went to Tesco and Giant to buy stuff like stationeries, toiletries and home appliances, then we went back to the campus to meet with the programme head...

At The Chicken Rice Shop Tesco Shah Alam - Ika, Miera, Nana, Tasya

Coloured pens for my notes and mind maps = )

On the second day:
Went to 2 morning classes, then me and Nana skipped the evening classes and went to PAS and SACC Mall. I succeeded in convincing Nana to buy a Blackberry and spent the rest of the evening and my night setting up Nana's phone and teaching her.... I however, lost the new lip balm I bought. Also had the chance to decorate my organiser and prepare my class schedule

At Noodle Station with Nana

My Organiser

Class Schedule

Bought more stationeries

On the 3rd day:

Pretty uneventful day. Went to class, given some assignments, did research work for some of it. I loved the audit lecturer though. One, because I love the subject. Two, because of her own mannerism, she is so intelligent and professional, yet soft spoken, that I can't help but to be in awe with her. Loved the way she handled us, it reminded me of how my seniors and bosses handled our clients......

Budak kecik gemok semangat ke kelas =p

On the 4th day:
For the morning class, we had Accounting Theory class, and I have to say that I love this one too. She is funny and wise, and have a mother-like mannerism, reminded me of my Mom. She quoted Napoleon Hill, "Whatever your mind an conceive and believe, you can achieve". She says lots of things that my mother always tell me, very philosophical, and a lot of her principals are the same as mine. She also have a wide general knowledge. I also went shopping again with Nana and had Tutti Frutti with her.

Gave Nana a brain freeze!

My pencil box

All in all, it was great week.... I had tonnes of fun, had the chance to catch up with all my friends...

Experiencing all the best parts of campus life again...

This whole week I have been super excited about every single thing.....

For once, after months of not feeling quite myself, I feel myself again...

I feel happy and normal again, and my life is back on track.....

And everything is just perfect, the way it is, right here...

I am me, and this is my life, and I vow to live my last semester as a full time student to the fullest....

I will be more punctual and skip less classes (hopefully), and will actually make an effort to listen to the lecturer and not sleep in class (will try my best although I can't promise).....

But I will definitely, spend more time with my friends, and enjoy being a student, and appreciate and feel fully every single thing that I have now instead of just going through the motions....

I wanna appreciate what I have right now while it lasts....

People are important, studying and life is not just about ambitions, and money, getting rich, and earning positions.....

But we gotta also take the time along the way to stop and smell the roses, and appreciate what we have, and spend what's left of our time with them, to always remember them and make as much good memories as we can....

I always thought that everything was about money, and life can wait, people can wait, all I ever cared about was my ambition, career, money. I lost sight of non-monetary and intangible stuffs that actually matters more than all that...

When I was working I had lots of money to spend, but I never have time to spare, and I never get to meet my friends, and never get to spend time with my family, no time to indulge myself..... And I realised that even if you have all the money in the world, it would mean nothing if you're unhappy.... Because money can buy stuff, but it doesn't necessarily buys you happiness.... People does that for you...

So for this semester, in addition to trying my best to score, I want to spend time with all my friends, and I wanna listen to their stories, laugh with them and cry with them, do stuff for them and help them whichever way I can.....

Because after this, we are all gonna go our separate ways, and we won't be seeing each other everyday anymore, and I wouldn't have much time to spend with them anymore....

People are important, family is important, friends are important. They are to be treasured, and so that I'll do, and I will live my life to the fullest with them with what little time I have left to be ultimately free right now.....

So, I think I da 'MEREPEK' and 'MEMBEBEL' enough for the week.....

Till next time... = )

If Hearts Can Talk....

If hearts can talk, I wonder what mine would be saying….
If hearts can talk, wouldn’t it be easier?
I wish hearts can talk, ‘cause only then maybe we could be free of all the lies and dishonesty…..

What is it about the past that keeps pulling you in involuntarily?
That even after I’ve moved on, live my life, figure out how to be my own person without him, and are genuinely happy with my life and who I am right now, once in a while, something or someone from the past will appear out of nowhere.
Most of the time the past feels distant, it is distant, and then once in blue moon, it resurfaces…
What’s with that?
People say “Yesterday was history, Tomorrow is a mystery, and Today is a gift. That’s why we call it the PRESENT”.
A few days ago I came across a quote by Anonymous saying “Don’t look back at what you’ve lost. Move on. Remember, life is not meant to be traveled backwards”.
In a way, I don’t feel like it’s something I’ve lost. In fact, I know I’m so much better off without him. Deep down, I always felt like I deserve someone better, like he couldn’t be the best there is for me… I mean, being who I am, I can get more, deserve more. After I discovered all the lies and the secrets, I feel that more strongly than ever…
And I feel relieved, that after everything that has happened, I am now able to be free of him, blameless.
It’s a good thing. And I don’t want any part of him in my life anymore.
And when he came back, I am certain than ever that I definitely, positively do not want an asshole like that in my life…
Which makes me wonder then, why does the past sometimes resurfaces?

So I wanna share another quote by an unknown that sounds like this, “Sometimes it’s not the person that that we miss, it’s the memories that we share together with them”. I think there’s a truth in the quote. Because memories, no matter what, will always stay the same, frozen in time, unchangeable and can never be undone. But people though, changes. I myself, changed, after everything that has happened. We are now different people, strangers, set on different paths, and that is it. And now, I am moving forward, I refuse to stay in the past. I believe there is a reason why everything happens the way it did. Every cloud has a silver lining. And I know, that God always have the best plans for us, that everything happens for the best.
I think the reason why things are so hard this time around is because, in the past, I’ve used up my strength to recover from my heartbreaks. So many times have it been used up, that maybe what was left of it is not enough to sustain me this time? Is that even possible? Or is it true when they say that it is when you feel like you are spent, that you have no more strength left in you, is the moment when you find new courage and become stronger than you have ever been before?
The part that hurts is not the being without him part. 'Cause being without him I feel like I’ve been saved. But I think what hurts most is the betrayal, all the lies and dishonesty, the manipulation. Nevertheless, I am bouncing back….

Till next time….. = )

Dream.... Oh little dreams of mine

Hey guys,
It seems it' s been more than a year since I have last visited, and much less, write anything in this blog...
Always have a lot of things to say, opinions to express, but never enough motivation to write it down.....
Nevertheless, I back now! Heeee = )
Made a pact to update the blog at least once a week....
And this week's theme, is DREAM.....
So what's in a dream?? Jeng jeng jeng..... Hihihihihi =p

Dream, according to Cambridge Advanced Learner's Dictionary is;
One- a series of events and images that happen in your mind when you are sleeping
Two- something that you want to happen very much but that is not very likely
Three- to imagine something that you would like to happen
However, in today's concept, when talking about dreams, it can also represent our ambitions, and the things we wanna do in our lives....
Which is what I'm gonna talk about today....

Being a final year student, who is about to start her last semester, where I'm gonna go next, and what am I gonna do, what I want to accomplish in my life, are some really important questions.....
Some, hasn't even been able to figure out the answers to all of this, but fortunately for me, my whole life has been about me, moving towards my dreams, establishing what I want in my life and figuring out how do i get there....
I guess I am quite fast- paced in that sense....

When I was a five year old, I always dreamed of becoming a doctor....
Little girls would be playing barbie and I was begging my mom everyday for a doctor's kit....
As I grew up, the dream became more detailed.....
I wanted to become a surgeon (either a cardiologist, obstetrician or a neurosurgeon), and I would also in addition to being a surgeon, has a Degree in Psychology. The idea was to be a surgeon and save a lot of money, and when I'm 35, I'll be opening my own private practice as a psychologist....
Then, at the age of 45, I'll sell the practice, retire, and would be a linguist and a freelance book translator, and I will be doing my Bachelor in Literature, and when I graduate, I wanna write lots and lots of novels... Hahahahha a pretty big and elaborate dream for a 12 year old, but then again, I have never been ordinary.....

That was the dream that I hold till I was 17, and I let it go because my result wasn't enough for meds school.... And while growing up, i discovered my passion in the F&B line, and also spa and salons.... So when I was applying, I wanted to take Hotel Management, or Cosmetics and Hair and Beauty Care, so that I can 1 day open up my own hotel or salon cum spa.....
My parents though had a different idea, so long story short, I was sent to Perlis to study Accountancy, where I later developed a dream of working in a Big 4 and building network, and saving up capital, so that at the age of 30, I'll be able to open up my of Chartered Accountant Firm.....
So I followed the path, and did everything right, and I, as well as any other person in my life can see that I'm beginning to reach that dream, that it wasn't so farfetched, that it is within my grasp....
And when the time came for my internship in my later years, I got accepted to PricewaterhouseCoopers, one of the Big 4... I was jumping up and down in excitement and at the same time having sleepless nights due to nightmares caused my own fears of my incapability of living up to their expectations....
It was really big for me, as that internship spot earns me 70% possibility of being accepted as an employee when I graduate later...
So I went, and lived apart of my dream, for 6 months... where I have learnt a lot, not only in my area of expertise, but also in terms of career...
I get to meet a lot successful people, and the seniors and bosses who literally educated me on career opportunities and life path...
So then my dream was again altered, a bit... I now no longer wanna have my own firm.
My dream, now, is to work in PwC when I graduate, work my butt off to become Manager, and after that resign and apply for a job in Oil & Gas company.....

All in all though, in my whole 23 years, I have learned a lot about dreams...
Dreams can change, we adapt our dreams to our present life, our dreams develop in line with our own progress....
My mom always told me to never give up on your dreams, always believe in yourself, in your capabilities, because you are extraordinary and exquisite... You are capable of making a difference, capable of changing the world, if you put your mind to it... Never give up, there is always a way...
My mom is a very wise woman, I trust her, and I always believe evrything she says...
And being the wise woman she is, she made me a wise person, I am today the strong-willed and opinionated person, because of her... I am somebody, because of her...
I believe that whatever our dreams, as a person, we are always capable of achieving whatever it is that we want..... Anything, as long as we are willing to sacrifice for it, and are willing to work our way, fighting against the world for it.... Sadistic, but true...
I have always been the glass half full person, as opposed to the glass half empty kinda person.....
My mom taught me to always be positive, cause when you are positive, positive things are gonna happen to you...
The happiest person is not the one who get all the best things in life, but rather, who makes best of what he has in life...
So for me, whatever life throws in my face, whatever setbacks life give me, I always bounce back and get back my feet on the ground, all ready,walking proud and tall, heading towards my dream....
So folks, don't ever be afraid to dream, cause the moment when you stop dreaming, is the moment when you will become a nobody... Dreams make us somebody, they give us purpose, and they keep us in line, keep us straight, keep us tall.....
People who don't dream, are the people who doesn't have purpose in life, and without purpose, why would we wanna live at all? What would our life be worth then?
So always dream big, but in the same time, don't forget to be realistic..... Never be afraid to strive for your ambition, even when people are laughing at you, take it as a challenge, ignore what people say...
But also remember guys, figuring out what you wanna do in life, and how to get there, is only half of the equation....
The other half, is figuring out who to share your success with....
Just a food for thought.....
All the best of luck to you guys, I hope you will all be able to achieve your dreams....
Till next week ;-)